Tiredness

Started taking medicine yesterday and felt more tired.
Don't know if it is because of my body fighting back the virus in my liver but whatever......

Everyday after 3PM, I feel that I can't even lift my arms. I have to make such an effort just to keep myself to go through rest of the day sitting on my chair.

Because of the tiredness, I'm less patient, thoughts are less clear, can only concentrate for far shorter length of time, lose will to work/study quickly, unable to push myself to exercise...... Not productive at all.

Now I understand why some elders advocate euthanasia to have a dignified death and actually I want that right available to me too if dignified life is not possible due to sever sickness.

As soon as I feel I can live more like my age, something happens to push me to grow psychologically older. Good or bad?
Maybe both.


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Punch Fitness MMA 比赛

昨天因为Capoeira教练MMA Debut，观赏了第一场现场的MMA比赛。
大约从7点开始，一共进行了10场左右的比赛。

Fight

输/胜 - 一边是医护人员给失去意识的选手输氧，一边是朋友们庆祝胜利

等待 - 两个选手都很紧张的等着裁判结果。

Joy - 赢了的选手的表情很开心。
Compact的相机拍Sport Event果然不够。无论是灯光，motion还是距离。==|||
比赛都很热血。至于为什么这些人要忍受这些痛苦，伤害，流血，被打晕甚至危及生命的危险MMA fight，那只有他们自己能回答了。
Take your body to the limit and achieve a sense of greatness. Strength and Honor......



(偷偷放一张那个gym里面很很很Cute的拳击教练，Boxer, won 9 (KO 7) + lost 5 (KO 1) + drawn 1 = 15)
OK, 我承认，我是肌肉控 ==|||）

无眠

昨天晚上又只睡了两个多小时，不知道是不是因为背部肌肉痛的缘故。
羡慕了Y到现在还是能一碰到枕头就马上睡觉。
想起我25之前也是如此啊！痛哭流涕。
能好好睡觉绝对是一件幸福的事情。

为了安慰自己，就难得动手做了点好吃的。Guacamole!
没漂亮的碗，就用网上偷的照片吧。Hohoho


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嗯，这次柠檬挤了半个，酸的味道稍微重了一些，下次用1/4的份。Salsa少放了，可以调的稍微更辣一些就完美了。
：）
Such simple food, yet taste so so so so goooood!!!!!


清除了SD卡，晚上准备多拍几张MMA fighters。嘿嘿。；）
卡里几张抓拍的云。

新败家 - Panasonic Lumix DMC-LX3

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趁着Ebay有MSN Live Search的30% Cash Back，败了一个LX3。
Wide Angle，用来拍景色很好。唯一遗憾就是Optical Zoom才2.5x。
：）
下个星期二就能收到了。嘿嘿。。。。。。

一系列的霉运

昨天不小心把脚趾弄脱臼了，还好Marcos可以帮我put it back。没我想象中的痛，虽然我对痛觉一向不敏感。但也许是太痛了，我神经系统把痛觉shut it out了。
下课后，把朋友刚送的藏式手链给丢了。也许今天还能找得到。
早上查了一下信用卡的balance，发现2大笔很怪的transactions。打电话给customer service，发现自己卡被盗用了。Cancel掉。
==

股市在昨天的大涨后，今天又开始跌。早上清空了。今年等于白工作了一年，什么都没存下。
今年的财运真是太差了。

然后医生在下班前打电话给我说拿到lab结果了。叫我马上打电话联系医院，最好在三个星期内的appointment。不行的话他会亲自联系。
Sign......
果然是黑色十月。
水星逆行的最后一天，还是没有逃掉啊! ==

力气

这两个星期已经有好几天全身一点力气都没有。
真是可怕的感觉，尤其是对我这种怪力女来说。哈哈

股市的黑色星期，我也没什么剩下可亏了。^^|| 幸好还不算太老，还能扑腾一下。只是以后几年多辛苦一些罢了。

今天一个同事被Lay off，上个星期五一个同事辞职，另一个同事在很积极的另找工作，而我department的VP说自己要relocate去中国并且给新的VP移交工作。真是树倒猢狲散。
我讨厌office politics，但是不表示我白痴。
很明显的我的department要基本被砍掉然后在中国请一些比较便宜的人手。
倒是知道我还能待1，2个月，大概要等到我这一轮的filing结束后。

狼说火雷噬嗑，2爻动，互为水山骞，变为火泽睽， 应期2天，2周，2月。想来应该差不多。

Gina Carano

星期六晚上看EliteEx的比赛，那个叫Gina Carano的女孩真的很厉害，不张扬又非常漂亮。：）Fan之。


我看得很激动，然后会在电视前嚷嚷说，sweep leg，take down啥的。
有好几次比赛的人在我嚷嚷后马上做出同样的动作，然后嬴了。一起在看的女生们就说，你也去打MMA吧。我。。。。。。
然后她们就激烈的讨论要给我取什么名字，汗。然后说要一起穿上前面写着My Crotch on your face，背后写着Armbar later的T-shirt。==||| 希望不会有这么恐怖的场景发生。

J很认真的说，为什么不去呢？也许前世你是个武士。否则为什么学了这么多年？
；）

Random Rant

乱说一下吧。
昨天巴西柔术考试，拿了根绿色。今天Capoeira课应该可以确认不会在Batizado上拿新的Belt。家里一堆各色的带子。其实拿过了黑带就会没有黑带情节，LOL。说实在的，只是一根带子，不能代表到底你的实力如何。
巴西柔术大概需要10年才能得到黑带，而跆拳道大概只需要1年。So, is that meaningful at all? Not really.
也许对于不懂得外人来说，可以有炫耀的资本。但是对自己来说，没有什么意义。
只是看着别人因为拴在身上带子的颜色换了一下，就完全改变态度，实在是很有意思的事情。
当Royality和商业行为挂钩，实在是让人觉得distasteful.

晚上Girls Night，想不到我也有和一群女生坐一圈，然后大家乱说一堆的时候。好像Group Therapy. ==||
但是Host的女生的竞争意识太强了，因为明天有另一个女生邀请大家去家里一起看ＭＭＡ的比赛。


PS: 考试的时候Big Foot走进了Acadamy，汗，真的是太高大的人。

Saturn conjunction MC

Beginning of October 2008 until beginning of July 2009: This is the time when all your past preparations for the future will have their most important consequences. This influence represents an important life pinnacle for you, but it also entails very important duties and responsibilities.

About fourteen years ago, you began a new cycle of personal development. During this entire period you have laid the framework for what will happen now. This is the first of two or three such cycles in your life; the later ones will be more significant.

As you approach this culmination of years of effort and ambition, it is very important to review just what you have been trying to achieve and how you have been going about it. The more solidly you have laid the foundations for your success, the greater your capability for achievement at this time. But if you have taken shortcuts anywhere or broken the rules of the game you are playing, you will have trouble in those areas of your life.

The areas of your life that you have prepared carefully will become tremendously productive now. Your opportunities are at a peak for achievement and for additional responsibility and power in your work and in your personal life. People will look to you for leadership, whether you want it or not.

If your preparation for this period of your life has been sloppy or full of shortcuts, or if you try to avoid its increased responsibilities, you run the risk of losing everything, even in the areas where you have prepared well and have taken responsibility.

新的一轮么，拭目以待。