The Simpson's movie

昨天去看了The Simpsons的电影。
确实很好笑。
Lisa的部分有点让我心酸。
开始的时候只有她有环境保护意识，却无人理睬。
通过保护湖水法规后，终于变清的湖被她父亲Simpson一下子彻底破坏了。
到电影结尾的时候，Simpson拯救了整个Town，皆大欢喜完美结局的时候，我在想，那湖呢？
看电影的人，都似乎完全忘记哪被污染的湖，和电影里的人一样。
而Lisa也终于找到她的soulmate，他为她谱的曲子应该比那湖更重要了吧?
Ignorance of the viewers, is that what The Simpon's movie trying to say?
Who is going to take care the lake now?

此一时彼一时

突然想通了一些事情
我发现我一直想多了
i was think about the consequence before actions
i really want to travel around, and i know for sure that i'm not ready to settle down for a family life or a relationship
however, i'm already thinking ahead of what if i'm tied of that traveling life, and want to start a normal life, would i able to find someone then and settle down?
that's the base of my worries
i should really act my age not act as if i'm 45
:)
i'm canadian, i'm young, i know 2 languages fluently and learning another one, i have my bba and a lot of advanced professional experience, paid off my studen loan
so what i'm worrying about?
my mom moved to US without everything that i have now when she was 35
i can start over again with no problem if i'm want to settle down to have a normal life when i'm 35
想开了就豁然开朗了
i'm grewed up too fast, and i shouldn't do this to myself again
i should give myself 10 years to do whatever i want and not worrying about the consequences all the time

look ahead, girl

Wall

在Vancouver的夜市，我又跑去让一个tarot reader给我做reading。她说我给自己造了一堵墙，而现在too late for me to change......
这个星期又是工作到精疲力竭，加上上个星期的感冒没有好
昨天真的很想和谁诉苦一下
结果还是吞了下去
总是觉得别人会不耐烦听自己诉苦
人与人之间真的有那么冷漠么
也许这就是我给自己造的墙吧
because i believe it exists, and it exists
i don't want to try to prove it's real or not, because if it's real then it's too hard for me to bear?
fear is the mind killer

Mini Atlas

Collins Mini Atlas of the World has arrived.
Smaller than I imaged it would be.

Time

Time is passing so fast.

Already, it's July 19th, 2007. Deadline for my work is coming up on the 30th, and right now I still can't concentrate to finish my case.

Just came back from Vancouver. Finally, I think I can let the past go.

One of my best friend is getting married, and we are all planning to have a party before she get married.
Everything seems getting better.

Somehow when I was in Vancouver, I think that stable life style is not so bad. Is it because I don't have anyone to share my life with, then I have the urge to seek around? Travel is only an escape? For now, no matter what, I will go for it. No matter what, I don't want to regret when I become older.

My first travel bag arrived. It's Eagel Creek Boundary.

Seems very comfortable and light. I really like it. Smaller than I thought, but I guess I don't need that much luggage anyway.

Initial Stage RTW Itinerary

[image reference: http://away.com/images/shoulder_season/around_the_world/around-the-world.jpg]

July 2008 - September 2008
Miami & Vancouver: Last Stage Preparation
October 2008 - March 2009
Central & South America:
April 2009 - November 2009
Asia:
December 2009 - January 2009
South Africa:
Febuary 2010 - April 2010:
N. Africa & Arabic:
May 2010 - September 2010:
Europe:

Due the deprecation in US Dollar Value, now estimated cost is up to 30 - 35 per day. I need approximately $30,000 for the trip and $15,000 for coming back 6 month emergency fond. OUCH! ^^
Another year to go to get ready, but seeing the dream is so close... ... can't help myself to be excited.
Calm down, girl, one step at a time, and you'll get there.

Movie Day

放假了一天

看了一天的电影

Transformer，Fantastic 4 （半场） 和Ratatouille.

Transformer和Ratatouille很好看，Fantastic 4还是很一般

Althought all my senses are statisfied, I still walked out threater empty. Feel so disconnected.

This kind of life is so comfortable. Friends, house, car, safety......

Yet, what's the meaning?

I know there is no meaning for everything... ...

Should I just give up?

我坐在车里，玩着最新的high tech toy - iphone, 冷气的冷风吹着，隔离着热气，干净的玻璃挡住雨滴，窗外是7月4号的烟花。

All those comforts would not be avaliable to me while traveling. I'll be sweating, wet by the rain, walking across inhospitable terrain, risk personal safety... just in the hope of finding some meaning to life when i know there is none.

I'm such an idiot. :)

People always want something more than immediate joy or that deeper sense called happiness. This is one of the secrets by which we shape the fulfillment of our designs. The something more assumes amplified power with people who cannot give it a name or who (most often the case) do not even suspect its existence. Most people only react unconsciously to such hidden forces. Thus, we have only to call a calculated something more into existence, define it and give it shape, then people will follow.

- Leadership Secrets of the Bene Gesserit