Incubus

i went to watch incubus concert yesterday
they are pretty amazing
i really love their song Drive & Megalomaniac, and obviously they are crowd's favority also
there were a lot of energy and it was such a great performance
when they came back out to play another 3 songs, the guitar player actually used a chinese instrument, 琵琶(pipa), for one the songs
that was a pleasant surprise
this proves they are truely experiemental and talented
never contented of what they have now or succeed so far, and always pushes forward

Incubus - Megalomaniac

I hear you on the radio
You permeate my screen, its' unkind but
If I met you in a scissor fight
I'd cut off both your wings on principle alone
On principle alone

Hey megalomaniac
You're not Jesus
Yeah, you're no fucking Elvis
Special, as you know yourself, maniac
Step down
Step down

If I were your appendages
I'd hold open your eyes So you would see
That all of us are heaven sent
There was never meant to be only one
To be only one

Hey megalomaniac You're not Jesus
Yeah, you're no fucking Elvis
Special, as you know yourself, maniac
Step down
Step down

Yeah
You're no Jesus
You're not Elvis ...
They're no answer

Hey megalomaniac
You're not Jesus Yeah, you're no fucking Elvis
Special, as you know yourself, maniac
Step down


the problem is none of my photo turn out great i'm thinking to get a new one probably, but i don't want waste money either
i hardly use camera for anything
of course i can argue that since i'm going to travel now, i will use camera extensively
LOL
let's see...

资料和路线

出去玩的路线真是要花很多时间来research。
现在刚定下10中旬-12月份去中美，1月初-4月初去南美。
房间里堆满了书和零碎的装备。
加上一些刚买的心理学方面的书，我的reading list还真长。
昨天下午回到家，就累得睡过头，又miss了我的capoeira class
希望professor不会太mad
^^
毕竟明天还要去看incubus的concert
只能说计划不如变化
刚刚收到Derren Brown的Tricks of the Mind，觉得写得还不错
很多地方写得非常幽默

what's facinating is that myself has been interested in tarot
he demonstrated, without using any tool or claim of supernatural, a deep understanding of human nature that beyond comprehension
which makes him better than any of those "psychics"
i want to learn that knowledge
of course i know TV show is produced to give audiance that stunning effect
yet, his knowledge of suggestion, hypnosis, trickery which he carried out with such an easiness is definitely worth a look at

人生目标

算是定下一个了比较可行的人生目标吧
目前就按这样的计划进行好了
方正按自己喜欢的事情来生活
to work to live, not to live for work

目前的旅行计划只能分段进行
先去中美2个月，然后回来，校正牙齿，然后去南美3个月
回来，校正牙齿
之后去什么地方再说
六月份牙套拿下之后再连续旅行一年

买了一堆乱七八糟的旅行用品，每天2个包裹寄到
家里乱成一团
不过每次想到能终于出去看看世界了，就会笑出来
dream almost coming true
:)

轻松

星期一和老板说了辞职的事情后整个人就都轻松了
这几天都很轻松地在玩
虽然是小公司，但是人际关系却非常复杂
office politics无所不在

虽然有点想留下来，然后在家里工作。这样的话，收入比较大，很flexible。也不用看任何人勾心斗角。尤其是最近很有想买apartment的想法。真是很吸引人啊！
但是，就算在家里工作，和现在的公司也是藕断牵连。
我想我还是用这个机会去旅行吧。
：）
Start afresh.
尤其是因为自己还不知道会不会继续做会计这一行，没必要再commit自己to another 2 years。

人生苦短。
有机会的话还是想做自己喜欢的事情。错过了机会，可能就不再有了。

life never go as planned

人生总是充满了意外。
人生并不会完全按计划进行，这才是生活的精彩部分。
看来我的RTW计划会提前1年进行了。
虽然还箍着牙齿，但是其实仔细想想这并不是太大的阻碍。
所谓阻碍实际上都是自己给自己设置的。
The lesson of fool, when you step off the clif, you find your freedom.
只要一些小小的moderation，计划可以提前1年进行。
某种程度来说，我赢得了1年的时间。

感冒

又感冒了
已经持续了2个星期了吧
on and off on and off again
虽然说是因为自己不喜欢吃药而没有坚持喝感冒冲剂
但是身体果然不如以前了
这3天又都是2，3点睡觉，呵呵，不能再纵容自己了
要恢复健康的体质才行
稍微看了一眼自己吃的东西，非常high carb
可能low carb的diet对我健康有帮助吧
i should cut out all sugar, bread, cookies, and all those refined food for a month
一个月，看看会如何
:)

清醒

Mind Body Soul

三张都是逆位。

人好像是会一下子清醒过来，也许是星盘里的某课星星已经撤离了某个宫位。冷静和第三人角度又回来了。希望这次不会是暂时现象。

昨天在看一本虐的很重的书，讲杨戬的。 （杨戬-人生长恨水长东）

主人公真是对自己够狠心，魂飞魄散却是为了一群完全不了解他的所谓亲人们。

“二哥对笨蛋们就是太好了，好到他们已经无法背负无以偿还，龙四期望自己根本就没看见，梅山老大把注意力转到乞丐头儿身上，小玉自闭去了，小三呢——她祈祷自己只是在发噩梦，醒来之后一切回到原地，老刘还是她的好丈夫，沉香还是她的好儿子，她开始暗暗怨恨水镜为什么要显示得这么清楚（没敢想下去，不代表她潜意识里不这么期待），对某些人来说，如果不了解是她爱上的原因，那么她宁愿无知，而二哥正相反，他宁可做一个不幸的人而知道一切，也不要做一个幸福的人而过着傻瓜的生活，所以他安排了一切，惟独不留下记忆，对于小三的性子，他实在是太清楚太清楚了……
　　小三终于开始明白自己善良的光环下藏着的是什么，人或许可以避开世界，却很难避开自己，而人类的智慧，所难的也不在于看清别人，而在于看清自己。”

http://newmm.cmfu.com/readchapter.asp?bu_id=2173806&bl_id=70453

宁可做一个不幸的人而知道一切，也不要做一个幸福的人而过着傻瓜的生活

这就是"human"和"animal"的区别吧

You've heard of animals chewing off a leg to escape a trap? That's an animal kind of trick. A human would remain in the trap, endure the pain, feigning death that he might kill the trapper and remove a threat to his kind. We Bene Gesserit sift people to find the humans.
- Reverend Mother Gaius Helen Mohiam

"Remain in the trap, endure the pain ...... remove a threat to his kind"

对于'animal'来说，那种痛苦是不可想像的吧，可能会觉得'human'愚蠢

可是对于'human'来说，那是理所当然的

用'animal'的角度来看'human'，自然是无法理解，exist in two worlds

只是'human'太少了，只能清醒孤独地走完一生

maybe one day, there will be real "Bene Gesserits"