Windy & Gloomy

心情是从未有的低劣。
天气又刮风和阴冷，让我只想好好休息一天。
可是工作还是一堆，下午还要去客户公司。
回家后，在冰箱里看见２天前别人送的玫瑰花束。本来想昨天拿给老妈的，但是忘记了。
现在扔感觉也挺可惜的。
找来找去找不到任何瓶子，只好把漱口的杯子拿过来。如果送的人知道，肯定会吐血吧？
看着插在漱口杯子里的一堆奄奄一息的花，才忍不住自己笑了出来。

I'm miserable. That's the truth and there is no denial about it.
I want to be free to do things I like and I can. Why am I keep giving excuses to cage myself?
There is nothing to be afraid about! I can always start anew.
I think I kept myself back because I was afraid.

I'm living alone now, have a new car, new tv, new relationship, but it doesn't fill my gap.
Truth is, I can live this "NORMAL" life for a period, but not long. Since I don't know when this NORMAL life will end, it really makes me very sad and angry unconsciously.

Right now, I'm ready.
No doubt about it, so clear.
So it is decided then, :), my gap year in one year.
Let's start the count down again!