Time

Time is passing so fast.

Already, it's July 19th, 2007. Deadline for my work is coming up on the 30th, and right now I still can't concentrate to finish my case.

Just came back from Vancouver. Finally, I think I can let the past go.

One of my best friend is getting married, and we are all planning to have a party before she get married.
Everything seems getting better.

Somehow when I was in Vancouver, I think that stable life style is not so bad. Is it because I don't have anyone to share my life with, then I have the urge to seek around? Travel is only an escape? For now, no matter what, I will go for it. No matter what, I don't want to regret when I become older.

My first travel bag arrived. It's Eagel Creek Boundary.

Seems very comfortable and light. I really like it. Smaller than I thought, but I guess I don't need that much luggage anyway.

Initial Stage RTW Itinerary

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July 2008 - September 2008
Miami & Vancouver: Last Stage Preparation
October 2008 - March 2009
Central & South America:
April 2009 - November 2009
Asia:
December 2009 - January 2009
South Africa:
Febuary 2010 - April 2010:
N. Africa & Arabic:
May 2010 - September 2010:
Europe:

Due the deprecation in US Dollar Value, now estimated cost is up to 30 - 35 per day. I need approximately $30,000 for the trip and $15,000 for coming back 6 month emergency fond. OUCH! ^^
Another year to go to get ready, but seeing the dream is so close... ... can't help myself to be excited.
Calm down, girl, one step at a time, and you'll get there.

Movie Day

放假了一天

看了一天的电影

Transformer，Fantastic 4 （半场） 和Ratatouille.

Transformer和Ratatouille很好看，Fantastic 4还是很一般

Althought all my senses are statisfied, I still walked out threater empty. Feel so disconnected.

This kind of life is so comfortable. Friends, house, car, safety......

Yet, what's the meaning?

I know there is no meaning for everything... ...

Should I just give up?

我坐在车里，玩着最新的high tech toy - iphone, 冷气的冷风吹着，隔离着热气，干净的玻璃挡住雨滴，窗外是7月4号的烟花。

All those comforts would not be avaliable to me while traveling. I'll be sweating, wet by the rain, walking across inhospitable terrain, risk personal safety... just in the hope of finding some meaning to life when i know there is none.

I'm such an idiot. :)

People always want something more than immediate joy or that deeper sense called happiness. This is one of the secrets by which we shape the fulfillment of our designs. The something more assumes amplified power with people who cannot give it a name or who (most often the case) do not even suspect its existence. Most people only react unconsciously to such hidden forces. Thus, we have only to call a calculated something more into existence, define it and give it shape, then people will follow.

- Leadership Secrets of the Bene Gesserit

Theme

"Beyond a critical point within a finite space, freedom diminishes as numbers increase. This is as true of humans in the finite space of a planetary ecosystem as it is of gas molecules in a sealed flask. The human question is not how many can possibly survive within the system, but what kind of existence is possible for those who do survive."
-Pardot Kynes, First Planetologist of Arrakis

New Project

用牌看了一下我的project的发展走向。

三张全部是major arcana，对未来的影响很大，很少有这么强大的组合。

Sleep, Sleep...

I had a good sleep, but i still need more.
My body is coming to a limit again.
Anger is uncontrollable again. Hopefully I can rest well and keep my weight down this week.
Bad feeling... As if my life is burning out on me and hope is so dim, yet i have no desire to end it yet.

Mind: Shame. An imposter. A state of denial. Unrequited love. Cruel gossip.

Body: Competition. Erratic energy. Confusion. Inconsistent effort. Preoccupation with material acquisitions. Appearing a fool in trying to keep up with the Joneses. Overspending. Impatience and stress. Waxing and waning of purpose. Clash of ideas and principles. Sloppy effort. Rebellion and turmoil. Breakdown of communication. Hurting others by giving mixed messages. Need to reevaluate situation, organize, and start afresh.

Soul: Opportunity. Swift response. Thinking on one¹s feet. Opening. Adventure. Chance to make great progress if one has the courage and wits to act quickly. Travel entailing a spiritual lesson. Can signify falling in love. Time of hope. Make your move. Opportunity afoot; make haste. Whirlwind of romance. Arrows of love.










My mind is depressed, my body is struggling and my soul needs a break from everything.

人生的课题

Eight of Swords - Reversedin the Past position. A card in the left position indicates what has happened to affect your question in the past.Betrayal. Unexpected aggression. Threatening situation. Can represent illness. The need to be on guard.

The Chariotin the Present position. A card in the middle position indicates what is affecting your question at this time.Triumph. Victory parade. Success of a multifaceted endeavour. Leadership, competence, and maturity. Conquest. An evolved personality. Courage. Being centered and secure. Moral, ethical progress and conduct. A high-minded, honourable approach to life. Balance, integration. Harmony of opposite tensions. Equilibrium. Reconciling opposing forces or views. Uniting right and left brain functions. Control over inner conflicts. Harnessing wild energies. Life unfolding at an accelerated pace, yet maintaining direction. Finding one¹s stride. Enjoying the thrill and ride of life. Engaging an ambition or dream. Achievement. High energy. Promotion, honours, and reward. Overcoming opposition. May indicate a rescue, as in the arrival of the cavalry.

Temperancein the Future position. A card in the right position indicates your questions future.Tempering. Moderation. Adaptation. Managing a volatile situation in a calm, thoughtful way. Grace under pressure. Healing. Balance, reflection, and patience. Having clear boundaries. A confident and outspoken survivor. Bridging two very different worlds. The successful mixing of two opposites. Combining materials. This tarot card is sometimes called the Art card and speaks of visionary art that brings ideas from one world to the next. Being of two worlds. Ability to adapt. Beneficial transformation. Successful combination of ideas, lifestyles, or people. Creating a nurturing, appropriate environment. Caring for one¹s health. Repose. Feeling protected and removed. Guardian angel. Self-control. Compatibility. Blending and harmony. Finding inner peace. A period of waiting and constructive use of time.

用塔罗看了一下人生的课题。希望能走向temprance吧。

终于从sword 8的束缚走出来了。

:)

昨天夜晚在曲阜散步的时候，在仿古的城墙边上看到一群老人，在仿古的灯下打牌乘凉。他们的脸真是非常美丽，刻满了时间的痕迹。我带了相机去，但是不愿意拿出来破坏那样的美景。我想这就是“和平”吧？我一直看着他们，真是令人安详的画面。