Thursday, November 27, 2008

该死的Overhead Cost

本来看了The Art of Travel 电影让我兴奋地要马上出去旅行。
想象中旅行的钱已经够了,但是一算出发前的准备工作的预算。。。。。。
==
还要存2,3个月才够的样子。

1. 辞职后一个月的房租和花费 - 2000
2. 机票 - 850
3. 旅行的保险 - 600
4. 各种预防针 - 400
5. 手机的违约费用 - 200
6. First Aid Class - 150
7. 各种装备 - 500

。。。。。。
唉~

Monday, November 24, 2008

Count Down 8


非常困。
星期六一直睡到下午2点,起来买东西,看了会儿电视,吃饭,上网后10点就睡了。
星期天10点起来。吃了中饭,12点又睡了。3点起来,坐着不想动,force自己出去买了点食物。
因为很讨厌这种不正常的状态,撑到11点多。
早上睡到9点起来,一天还是全身无力,发烧的感觉。

让人烦躁,尤其是一直觉得自己身体强健。==

Friday, November 21, 2008

Monday, November 17, 2008

Randy Couture 大叔输了

星期六UFC 91的主场比赛Couture vs. Lesnar,Randy Couture大叔以TKO的形式输掉了。


很难受。
其实Couture大叔是45岁的年龄,Lesnar才31岁;Couture是100公斤,而Lesnar是120公斤;Couture是188cm,而Lesnar是191cm。
从年龄,身高,体重上来看,Couture大叔肯定是输定了。
可是we dare to hope,打过20多场赛事的老将能战胜。
The belief that 技术经验能战胜蛮力。
Isn't that the most important part in Martial Arts?


(Source: http://media.charlotteobserver.com/smedia/2008/11/16/01/UFC_91_Mixed_Martial_Arts.sff.embedded.prod_affiliate.138.jpg)

当Lesnar勾拳碰到大叔的后脑而大叔支撑不住跌倒后,我就别开脸不能看下去了。
输掉的Randy Couture还是很从容,期望他能继续做他自己喜欢的事情,showcase spirit of a true warrior。

Saturday, November 15, 2008

Capoeira Topazio Batizado 2008







应该是我最后一次的Grupo Topazio 的 Batizado, 因为知道自己不会升级,所以很轻松地专门拍照片。
Was a fun event that I attended. Yet, it is another Chapter Closed. :)

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

不哭的孩子没糖吃

想来自己性格一向古怪。
宁肯自己吃亏受伤,也不愿大哭大喊引人注意。
付出不期待任何回报,因为不提醒,别人不会记得,期待永远会落空。
自命清高?
呵呵

偶尔还是有些不平衡的
不应该是善有善报么?
现实是不哭的孩子没有糖吃,就算哭的孩子已经有无数糖果,只要哭喊,得到的比不哭的孩子要多。

我坚持什么呢?
That behaving this way make me more human and less animal?

Had enough of superficiality and i can't wait to get out!

Sunday, November 9, 2008

PersonalDNA

www.personaldna.com

居然是11页的test
晕

我的result是Cautious Leader
==||


My personalDNA Report

Friday, November 7, 2008

Jobless rate bolts to 14-year high...


(img: http://biz.yahoo.com/ap/081107/economy.html)

Maybe in few years later, this picture will be used in text book and taught to future generation how things were......
Scarily familiar.
History has it's way to repeat itself.

Thursday, November 6, 2008

LX3 - 动态人物照测试







基本用Shutter Speed Priority拍的。

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

LX3 测试照









嘿嘿
确实不一样哦

Monday, November 3, 2008

Into the Wild

(image source: http://4-free-screensavers.com/screen-savers/i/Into_the_Wild/wallpapers/1280/Into_the_Wild_wallpaper_1280_8.jpg)

(image source: http://thepovertyjetset.com/wp-content/uploads/2007/09/into-the-wild.png)


看了很多人推荐的Into the Wild,确实很好很好。
只要心中还向往自由的人,就一定会看得不只一次泪下。

Alex真的是很勇敢的人。
我不能做到向他一样,因为我也会害怕自己能不能依靠最基本的东西而存活下去。
而他一无分文,却活得如此随意和快乐。
Life is truly a gift to him.

电影中扯动了我内心的一个镜头是Alex的父亲无力的在路上走着,然后在地上坐了下来,满脸的茫然,痛苦和helplessness。。。。。。
有我们这样渴望自由的孩子的父母都是痛苦的吧?
可是如果不去接受这样的自己,也无法“活”下去。
只能好好保护自己的生命,让自己的父母不会有那样的悲痛。
可是,risk is always there。
What a dilemma!

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

Tiredness

Started taking medicine yesterday and felt more tired.
Don't know if it is because of my body fighting back the virus in my liver but whatever......

Everyday after 3PM, I feel that I can't even lift my arms. I have to make such an effort just to keep myself to go through rest of the day sitting on my chair.

Because of the tiredness, I'm less patient, thoughts are less clear, can only concentrate for far shorter length of time, lose will to work/study quickly, unable to push myself to exercise...... Not productive at all.

Now I understand why some elders advocate euthanasia to have a dignified death and actually I want that right available to me too if dignified life is not possible due to sever sickness.

As soon as I feel I can live more like my age, something happens to push me to grow psychologically older. Good or bad?
Maybe both.


(Source: http://www.stus.com/images/products/cla179x4.gif)

Sunday, October 19, 2008

Punch Fitness MMA 比赛

昨天因为Capoeira教练MMA Debut,观赏了第一场现场的MMA比赛。
大约从7点开始,一共进行了10场左右的比赛。

Fight

输/胜 - 一边是医护人员给失去意识的选手输氧,一边是朋友们庆祝胜利

等待 - 两个选手都很紧张的等着裁判结果。

Joy - 赢了的选手的表情很开心。
Compact的相机拍Sport Event果然不够。无论是灯光,motion还是距离。==|||
比赛都很热血。至于为什么这些人要忍受这些痛苦,伤害,流血,被打晕甚至危及生命的危险MMA fight,那只有他们自己能回答了。
Take your body to the limit and achieve a sense of greatness. Strength and Honor......



(偷偷放一张那个gym里面很很很Cute的拳击教练,Boxer, won 9 (KO 7) + lost 5 (KO 1) + drawn 1 = 15)
OK, 我承认,我是肌肉控 ==|||)

Saturday, October 18, 2008

无眠

昨天晚上又只睡了两个多小时,不知道是不是因为背部肌肉痛的缘故。
羡慕了Y到现在还是能一碰到枕头就马上睡觉。
想起我25之前也是如此啊!痛哭流涕。
能好好睡觉绝对是一件幸福的事情。

为了安慰自己,就难得动手做了点好吃的。Guacamole!
没漂亮的碗,就用网上偷的照片吧。Hohoho


(Picture Source: http://latinonutrition.org/images/guacamole2iv.jpg)

嗯,这次柠檬挤了半个,酸的味道稍微重了一些,下次用1/4的份。Salsa少放了,可以调的稍微更辣一些就完美了。
:)
Such simple food, yet taste so so so so goooood!!!!!


清除了SD卡,晚上准备多拍几张MMA fighters。嘿嘿。;)
卡里几张抓拍的云。


Friday, October 17, 2008

新败家 - Panasonic Lumix DMC-LX3





(Picture Source: http://www.dpreview.com/news/0807/08072102panasoniclx3.asp)

趁着Ebay有MSN Live Search的30% Cash Back,败了一个LX3。
Wide Angle,用来拍景色很好。唯一遗憾就是Optical Zoom才2.5x。
:)
下个星期二就能收到了。嘿嘿。。。。。。

Tuesday, October 14, 2008

一系列的霉运

昨天不小心把脚趾弄脱臼了,还好Marcos可以帮我put it back。没我想象中的痛,虽然我对痛觉一向不敏感。但也许是太痛了,我神经系统把痛觉shut it out了。
下课后,把朋友刚送的藏式手链给丢了。也许今天还能找得到。
早上查了一下信用卡的balance,发现2大笔很怪的transactions。打电话给customer service,发现自己卡被盗用了。Cancel掉。
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股市在昨天的大涨后,今天又开始跌。早上清空了。今年等于白工作了一年,什么都没存下。
今年的财运真是太差了。

然后医生在下班前打电话给我说拿到lab结果了。叫我马上打电话联系医院,最好在三个星期内的appointment。不行的话他会亲自联系。
Sign......
果然是黑色十月。
水星逆行的最后一天,还是没有逃掉啊! ==

Friday, October 10, 2008

力气

这两个星期已经有好几天全身一点力气都没有。
真是可怕的感觉,尤其是对我这种怪力女来说。哈哈

股市的黑色星期,我也没什么剩下可亏了。^^|| 幸好还不算太老,还能扑腾一下。只是以后几年多辛苦一些罢了。

今天一个同事被Lay off,上个星期五一个同事辞职,另一个同事在很积极的另找工作,而我department的VP说自己要relocate去中国并且给新的VP移交工作。真是树倒猢狲散。
我讨厌office politics,但是不表示我白痴。
很明显的我的department要基本被砍掉然后在中国请一些比较便宜的人手。
倒是知道我还能待1,2个月,大概要等到我这一轮的filing结束后。

狼说火雷噬嗑,2爻动,互为水山骞,变为火泽睽, 应期2天,2周,2月。想来应该差不多。

Tuesday, October 7, 2008

Gina Carano

星期六晚上看EliteEx的比赛,那个叫Gina Carano的女孩真的很厉害,不张扬又非常漂亮。:)Fan之。


我看得很激动,然后会在电视前嚷嚷说,sweep leg,take down啥的。
有好几次比赛的人在我嚷嚷后马上做出同样的动作,然后嬴了。一起在看的女生们就说,你也去打MMA吧。我。。。。。。
然后她们就激烈的讨论要给我取什么名字,汗。然后说要一起穿上前面写着My Crotch on your face,背后写着Armbar later的T-shirt。==||| 希望不会有这么恐怖的场景发生。

J很认真的说,为什么不去呢?也许前世你是个武士。否则为什么学了这么多年?
;)

Saturday, October 4, 2008

Random Rant

乱说一下吧。
昨天巴西柔术考试,拿了根绿色。今天Capoeira课应该可以确认不会在Batizado上拿新的Belt。家里一堆各色的带子。其实拿过了黑带就会没有黑带情节,LOL。说实在的,只是一根带子,不能代表到底你的实力如何。
巴西柔术大概需要10年才能得到黑带,而跆拳道大概只需要1年。So, is that meaningful at all? Not really.
也许对于不懂得外人来说,可以有炫耀的资本。但是对自己来说,没有什么意义。
只是看着别人因为拴在身上带子的颜色换了一下,就完全改变态度,实在是很有意思的事情。
当Royality和商业行为挂钩,实在是让人觉得distasteful.

晚上Girls Night,想不到我也有和一群女生坐一圈,然后大家乱说一堆的时候。好像Group Therapy. ==||
但是Host的女生的竞争意识太强了,因为明天有另一个女生邀请大家去家里一起看MMA的比赛。


PS: 考试的时候Big Foot走进了Acadamy,汗,真的是太高大的人。

Friday, October 3, 2008

Saturn conjunction MC

Beginning of October 2008 until beginning of July 2009: This is the time when all your past preparations for the future will have their most important consequences. This influence represents an important life pinnacle for you, but it also entails very important duties and responsibilities.

About fourteen years ago, you began a new cycle of personal development. During this entire period you have laid the framework for what will happen now. This is the first of two or three such cycles in your life; the later ones will be more significant.

As you approach this culmination of years of effort and ambition, it is very important to review just what you have been trying to achieve and how you have been going about it. The more solidly you have laid the foundations for your success, the greater your capability for achievement at this time. But if you have taken shortcuts anywhere or broken the rules of the game you are playing, you will have trouble in those areas of your life.

The areas of your life that you have prepared carefully will become tremendously productive now. Your opportunities are at a peak for achievement and for additional responsibility and power in your work and in your personal life. People will look to you for leadership, whether you want it or not.

If your preparation for this period of your life has been sloppy or full of shortcuts, or if you try to avoid its increased responsibilities, you run the risk of losing everything, even in the areas where you have prepared well and have taken responsibility.

新的一轮么,拭目以待。

When it Hurts - David Usher